Recently I discussed K and the fact that she will miss me after I leave the project, but I will probably not miss her.
She emailed me the other day. Among other chitchat, she said, "I AM YOUR FRIEND--AND CARE ABOUT YOU."
Ouch. If I had a heart, the knife of unrequited friendship would be twisting in it about now.
Yet I do feel guilty, which means I am not totally heartless. Perhaps I do miss her after all. ;-)
And the universe, in its infinite sardonic wisdom, is chewing on my ass, because I also recently reached out to someone and was rebuffed.
"Pay attention," says the universe. "This is how it feels when you do that to someone."
I am listening and learning. It is a useful experience.
About Me
- Marvin the Martian
- I am an alien here on this little planet. I've been sent to learn about life here, to observe people and things around me, and to become a better entity by applying the lessons that I learn here. I've chosen the name "Marvin the Martian" because he is familiar to many, and the Martian mindset isn't expected to be similar to a human's. Thank you for stopping by to read this little blog. I hope you'll come back.
2008-06-26
The universe always comes back to bite me on the ass
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7 comments:
If you didn't have a heart (or if yours is wired up differently) you couldn't learn this lesson, Marvin. Are you learning? For real?
"And the universe, in its infinite sardonic wisdom, is chewing on my ass, because I also recently reached out to someone and was rebuffed."
Yes, the universe tends to do that to you - do sth nice and it's guaranteed to send some punishment your way for it!
Do what makes you happy. As long as you're not hurting anyone in the process, then just make sure you're happy and the rest will sort itself out.
Daisy: I have an accounting ledger which passes for a heart. ;-) If something doesn't balance, I feel bad. The only way I know whether I've learned something is if I make the same accounting mistake twice. Usually I don't. ;-)
Tink: I always follow the rule, "Do unto others, but do it to them first!" (not really.) Thank you for visiting! I don't see you often -I'm glad you're back.
Or maybe she just has a little work-crush on you? ;)
Drowsey: If she does, I don't know it. I never know those things. I am completely oblivious. ;-)
I don't think you should feel "guilty". After all, we can't help how we feel. If she became more attached to you than you did to her- that's no one's fault; it is what it is.
I've been in that situation many times and although I feel a twinge of "bad" for not returning the feelings, I can't help how I feel. Some people simply impact you more than others.
But that's just my two cents.
Corrina: I think too much, is all. I need to live in the moment and not always second-guess myself. ;-)
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